Dude….that’s my mom – http://wp.me/p271pb-3T
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03 Dec 2015 Leave a comment
Why people spend so much energy trying to prove things with words, then forget the actions do more.
Deep down, I see where I went wrong. I saw flags, but I chose to take a chance. He was so pushy and needy, but maybe I’m just too independent? He fell for me hard and very fast. Well duh, I’m fucking awesome. “He’s so funny, we have so many inside jokes and our oddball sense of humor is identical” I told myself. “We never lose topics of conversations and we just click on so many levels”. Truth is, I did just like I used to. I ignored my gut, my sixth sense. It’s so hard when it warns me about everything and everyone.. yes it’s always right, I shouldn’t have been so stubborn.
How can I see this differently?
It’s not impossible for me to let someone inside my walls. To genuinely enjoy someone’s company. I can accept and enjoy someone else’s kids. I think I’m more excited about gaining an extended family than I ever thought possible. I can trust. It’s good that I am guarded. And it’s okay that I’m a homebody. And it’s true, I’m really fucking funny. And oh my gawd, I actually love having someone touch my feet. I had no idea how amazing a foot rub could be. And if someone ever shoots me in the eye again, throat punch that bitch because he ain’t for you anyway. Most importantly, I’ve learned just how much I have grown internally, processing disappointments and not falling apart. Ain’t nobody got time for that.
Thank you for the lessons sir.
13 May 2015 Leave a comment
At least I thought I did. Life has a way of making you see the truth…beating it over and over in your head until you not only acknowledge it, but accept it.
Some people aren’t what we thought, or what we want them to be. Maybe they manipulate us when we are weak and vulnerable, saying exactly what we need to hear. Maybe they believe what they are telling us, if only in the brief moment they say it.
Is the truth what we need to see? Or is it this aching feeling deep in our gut pulling us back, that makes no sense other than this force we can’t explain? Or is it just loneliness poking and prodding, lowering our standards of what we think we deserve?
Eventually it’s time to let go and accept what they make so obvious. We either never knew them at all or we just don’t know who they are anymore. We all change in life. Our experiences make us grow and change. It’s part of our journey. Accept the lesson and thank them for it. If they are meant to be in your future, they will be.