I want to erase my being. I want to go back and give up sooner. I want to not be here. Life doesn’t make sense. This world doesn’t make sense. Can I just drive out of this world? Find a dirt road that leads to no where and no one. No responsibility. No one asking me for help. No one with their hands out expecting me to fix it. No one to beat me down. No one to use me.
Today I feel like death would be a beautiful thing. To end all my suffering. To end my existence. To close my eyes and never have to deal with conflict or drama again. No more judgement.
I don’t want to be a mom anymore. I just want to be myself and alone.
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