Sunshine growing in my soul

I am a firm believer in taking time to process and feel your pain. Whether it’s a day, a week, a month or a year. Then let it go and find peace with it, move on. I’ve become so good at goodbye from him that the process goes so much quicker now even though the pain is still excruciating. I’m realizing that because I still love him deeply, I can’t keep opening that door for him. I deserve better than reliving this pain everytime. Close the door.

While I know nothing is forever, situations can change in life many times, I also know he is not stable or safe for me right now.

Today the sun is shining.

Today marks a new me.

Today I’m going to mow the grass, pull weeds and get dirt under my nails.

Today I start getting back in shape, back to a healthier me.

Today I will take the time to look up at the sun and let it absorb in my skin and my soul.

Today is all for me.

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